Playing God?

Can't make my own decisions or make any with precision
Well maybe you should tie me up so I don't go where you don't want me
You say that I been changing, that I'm not just simply aging
Yeah how could that be logical?
Just keep on cramming ideas down my throat

Oh oh oh ohhhh

You don't have to believe me,
but the way I way I see it
next time you point a finger,
I might have to bend it back
or break it break it off
whoa
next time you point a finger
I hope it's at the mirror.

If God's the game you're playing, then we must get more acquainted,
It must be so lonely... to be the only one who's holy
It's just my humble opinion, but one I firmly believe in
You don't deserve a point of view, if the only thing you see is you.

ima just put it out there

nothing is good
im not ok
theres nothing anyone can do
mums paying to fix it
but nothings working
it might not last to much longer

It's nothing??

some may call me a freak or whatever but i actually think i am inlove with Hayley Nichole Williams. she makes me smile and makes me laugh. when im down i go straight to her music and look at her pictures. shes there whenever i ned to talk she just makes everything good. i think it definately safe to say that at soundwave next year i will have the best day of my entire life, 130 is nothing compared to what i would pay to see my best friend in real. Just this morning i watched a slideshow of pics of her and cried because she isnt mine and never will be mine. i wish i could change that i wish that i could hold her for even a few seconds. she means so much to me and i dont think that anyone could truely understand how much she means to me and how much i look up to that girl. she is my everything even though we have never spoke and never met all i wanna do its be with her.

i've got a feeling

im falling for someone once again and it feels great :D

RIP Amy

so today i went to the mordialloc beach where Amy's ashes were spread and it was good it has helped me move on and say goodbye to that stage of my life.
i needed to say goodbye so now i can try move on and be happy with what i have.
giving up like she did will never happen because i can see what it has done to the people around her i dont want to ever hurt my friends like that.
i miss her so much and ill never stop loving her
RIP AMY ROSE SMITH

trust

why are the ones i trust most
the ones i rely on
the ones i need
they are always the ones who hurt me the most

my weekend

awsome weekend
started it off at sams for drinks was a great night saw heaps of cool peopl efrom school and watched the boys attempt to play pool.
sam ashlee and jess did a im on a boat choregraphy set for me was a good night. then me and ashlee went to the bay and met up with matthew p curry that was ok but staying at sams probs would have been better.
saturday was good too mum took me to franga put some resumes in and then came home and went up and met jess, jake and beau at southland we chilled there for a while and bought some shit. then on way home picked up a gorgeous girl and we watched twilight then slept cuddling all night :)
sunday i drove her home and then me and megan went to the beach with our awsome dogs and that was dfun as it usually is and we went like double the distance as we usually go so now my car is full of sand.
was a great weekend i hope i have gpood ones like that more often :)
xoxoxo